Fuck. im in love. with Pure Reason Revolution. They just sound so... interesting and dark.
I found something today that desturbed me. it was self injury.net i came across it when i was looking for picures of johnny depp, or something i forget, but it really was wierd because it had a list of all the famous people who cut themselves in some way. some were pretty obvious, but people you wouldnt think, like well, johnny depp and colin farrell.
it makes me think the medicine im on is a cop out. that all these famous people delt with what i had to deal with, got past it and became famous, while all i did was take 7 pills a day and sit on my ass getting over my anorexia by eating everythign i saw. fuck.
i want to be a famous actor. well i want to be an actor again. its all ive ever wanted to do sence i was a little kid. when i was littl i would be different from the other kids and i would sit by the railroad tracks and cry because i knew that i wanted to be the next gwen paltrow and i knew i would never make it.
